something wrong

there is something definitely wrong with me.

a few days ago, my professor described "agoraphobia" as some one who didn't like going out of his/her house and enjoying being alone in a familiar place... to an extreme.

this makes sense of course... nothing like "wow, really?!" type of information here... but i always thought of it as fearing "crowds" not the "other way", like being more comfortable indoors.

i guess it just made me do a double take because that's how i am... extremely comfortable indoors. haha... not to say that any kind of indoors environment will do, because that's not it at all.

nope, it's only in my definite and defined personal space that i enjoy dwelling in. i always say that a room with a bathroom is perfect because, then, technically, you don't have to step out.

is this a sign of agoraphobia?
i don't know... but it sure seems close.

but then again, there isn't a definte black or white with these things. just a threshold where it gets too extreme i suppose.

maybe i'm just a little more normal than that line... just.

but i just can't help feel that there's something wrong with me in the "social" department.

it's not just me being awkward... it's me not even wanting to try. hating situations like ... the ones i hate.

is there something wrong?
or is it just me being me?

even if something was wrong though... i don't think i'll ever want to stop.
although, sometimes, being normal can come in handy. :/